Saturday

Saturday's going to be interesting. It's prom night but it's going to storm all day! I hate it when it rains on important days it's horrible. Then before prom we're taking pictures at my dads house. His mom's going to be there and she hates me! Don't ask me why she just does. With all the family drama, is his family and mine, it's going to be awkward. Then we have to stop at my grandma's for pictures and then we go the River Park for pictures. Then we're going to eat, I don't know where yet, but somewhere, then we're going to Prom at 9:00.

BTW: I love that hair! hahaha

KOM training!

Today we had KOM training. It was so much fun! I',m on council and I got to choose the mentors that were on my team. I had to pick people I didn't know so I was a little worried. But five minutes into the program I realized I had nothing to worry about. We all get along really well. I'm really glad I made the choices I did. Next school year is going to be fun because I have a great team that will actually participate and not just stand and around and do nothing. We're all really upbeat and creative and we're going to make Kick Off day a lot of fun. We're incorporating out own ideas, like skits, to show school rules, activities and things like that. I like last years dance better than this years, but it's still fun. I can't wait until Kick Off Day!

Books

So I'm running out of stuff to blog about so I'm going to blog about all my favorite books I've read over the years.

At School:

• Bridge To Terabithia
• Rules of The Road
• The Watsons Go To Birmingham
• Flowers For Algernon
• Tangerine
• Double Dutch
• Joey Pigza Loses Control
• Of Mice and Men
• Night

On My Own:

• Harry Potter [all]
• Perfect Chemistry
• All of Sarah Dessen's books
• Pretty Little Liars series
• Meg Cabot books
• Boys Lie
• I know It's Over
• Jumping Off Swings
• Going Too Far
• The Giver
• All Margaret Peterson Haddix books
• Indigo

As a little kid:

• Green Eggs and Ham
• Where The Wild Things Are
• One Teddy Bear Is Enough

Family Drama

I'm soo sick of family drama. My dad honestly doesn't know anything that's going on with me. I really don't think he even knows how old I am. He lets my stepmom rule over everything. She doesn't listen to a word anyone says. If it doesn't revolve around her then it's not important. If she has to give me a ride somewhere all she does is complain about how hard it is on her and all this and how it interferes with what she has to do. All she does is sit on her butt all day on her stupid computer. She's PRN that means she works when they call her, IF and only if she wants to. And it's not just my family either. Aaron's family has issues to. His step dad is horrible. He blames Aaron for everything that goes on. I've been on the phone while Kevin is yelling at him. It makes me really sad. Like last night his mom and Kevin started in on him and he was so depressed, I felt horrible. I hope things get better soon. At least we still have each other to talk to when stuff gets bad.

Prom

Prom is this weekend, and I'm pretty excited. It's been super stressful because my dress was late getting delivered and when it did finally come in it turns out it's the wrong color. It's not like way off or anything it was supposed to be midnight blue (navy pretty much) and it's dark teal. It was enough of a difference though that Aaron had to change the color of his vest and tie and his mom had to get different flowers. Now that all of that's out of the way and settled I'm getting my tan, I went yesterday for the first round of spray tan. It turned out good cause I'm not orange! I go Wednesday for an eyebrow waxing, Thursday is round two of the spray tan, Friday I'm getting my nails done. Then on Staurday my mom's friend Trish is doing my hair at around 3-4. Then my mom is taking me to my dad's and Aaron's mom is bringing him over and we're taking pictures, which should be interesting seeing as she hates me. Then my moms taking us there. I'm not sure who we're eating with before prom, but we'll figure it out.

"Who You'd Be Today"

There's a country song by Kenny Chesney that I can't listen to without bawling my eyes out. It's called "Who You'd Be Today" it reminds me of Travis and it gives me chills whenever I hear it.
listen:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2Ne3cz9eUsQ&feature=related

lyrics:
Sunny days seem to hurt the most.
I wear the pain like a heavy coat.
I feel you everywhere I go.
I see your smile, I see your face,
I hear you laughin' in the rain.
I still can't believe you're gone.

It ain't fair: you died too young,
Like the story that had just begun,
But death tore the pages all away.
God knows how I miss you,
All the hell that I've been through,
Just knowin' no-one could take your place.
An' sometimes I wonder,
Who'd you be today?

Would you see the world? Would you chase your dreams?
Settle down with a family,
I wonder what would you name your babies?
Some days the sky's so blue,
I feel like I can talk to you,
An' I know it might sound crazy.

It ain't fair: you died too young,
Like the story that had just begun,
But death tore the pages all away.
God knows how I miss you,
All the hell that I've been through,
Just knowin' no-one could take your place.
An' sometimes I wonder,
Who you'd be today?

Today, today, today.
Today, today, today.

[Instrumental Break]

Sunny days seem to hurt the most.
I wear the pain like a heavy coat.
The only thing that gives me hope,
Is I know I'll see you again some day.

Some day, some day, some day.



RIP Travis I miss you

Dad

So my dad and I used to be really close. I used to talk to him all the time about everything. At the same time my mom and I really didn't get along at all. We argued over everything. Now though it's like complete opposite. The past three weeks he's barely even looked at me. He called last night and said that it was because he was "tired and working all the time" I'm like whatever. That's just an excuse. Even when he is off work he's either sleeping or drinking. It really sucks because we used to be really close and now he hardly knows me.

Pet Peeves

Here are some of the things people say/do that get on my nerves.

• They walk unnecessarily slow in front of you in the hallways
• The go through the door that's already open. even when everyone going out it is heading in the opposite direction.
• When people complain about EVERYTHING
• When people look orange and try to play it off as a real tan.
• When you're arguing with someone and they just say, "It's whatever" I HATE that sooo much.
• When people kid about stuff they know is going to upset you then laugh because they can't believe you got upset.
• When people say your lying when your not.
• People that talk nice to their "friends" faces but as soon as they leave they're talking bad about them.
• People that think they are better than everyone else.
• People who imterrupt other people and start talking about themselves.

Warmth

It seems like the only thing I blog about these days is Aaron. That’s because generally he’s the only thing on my mind. I know that sounds really cheesy and cliche but it’s true. However, this past week he’s not the only thing that’s been in my thoughts. The drama with my dad and stepmom has been too, but seeing as he helps me feel better when they make me mad and stir stuff up he once again is the main subject of my thoughts. Friday we spent a glorious 8 hours together. My friend Cindy said it was like we were glued together. We wouldn’t let go of each others hand for anything unless we had to. He showed his true colors in front of my friends finally. He was the super-silly funny guy that I know and love. We were sitting on a bench overlooking the river, as we always do it seems, watching the sunset. He released my hand and put that arm around my shoulders and I leaned into him feeling his warmth on my cool bare arms. He used his other hand and wrapped his fingers around mine. I shivered a little. He asked if I was cold and I told him yes. He released my hand once more and wrapped that arm around the front of me enclosing me and sending warm tingles up my arms. I leaned my head against his shoulder and he rested his head against mine. When my brother abd my friends weren’t looking he pecked me on the cheek. My brother looked over and yelled that we were too close and my friend goes, “That’s not too close that’s adorable. He asked me if I was still cold and I told him yes. Okay so maybe I wasn’t AS cold as I was leading on but ya know whatever works right(:. He tightened his hold and brought me ever closer. He kissed my cheek again and warmth spread throughout my body. He whispered that he loved me. It was probably the cutest thing in the world seriously. I loved every minute of it.

Forgiveness

This past summer my best friend Amber and I got in a huge argument. It was about 9 PM and my cousin decided to call my other best friend Alex, whom Amber hates. He called him calling him obscene names and saying offensive things. Well when I called him back to apologize he didn't believe that I tried to stop them. I really did, my brother, Amber's brother, and Amber held me down on the ground and put their hands over their mouth till I bit them. Well like I said he didn't believe me he told me he never wanted to speak to me again and hung up. I called him back and begged for him to listen to me and the Amber grabbed the phone from me and called him a name that I didn't appreciate calling him. Then we started screaming at each other. Literally we were screaming, neighbors were out on their front porch watching us standing in the street and the front lawn screaming. She told me I was stupid to let him get to me and all this saying that it wasn't fair because I always called him instead of her when I needed to talk. Then her brother and I were walking around the block while I vented. He told me not to worry cause Alex would call after he came to his senses. I came back home cooled down and Amber and I talked it out and we were fine. Then Alex called back later on after I was in a really good mood; I'd finally talked to Timothy after about three weeks of zero communication. Everyone was alright with everyone but it so over dramatic and a little prank almost made me lose my two best friends.